It's a simple thing to compare the choices we make to the paths we take. We hear it all the time. What we choose will affect the path we're on. YES! There's no getting around it. That's a simple truth, and that is where my mind has been as of late.
My writing has pretty much come to a stand still. I took on more hours at work, signed my kids up for more classes, am going to school full-time, doing books for our farm, as well as trying to fulfill church callings and other things. Am I unique in my hectic schedule? NO! Sometimes I feel like I am, but in truth - I'm NOT! You all have busy lives that you work around and you all amaze me! You inspire me!
So, here's what I've shared with some friends at the writing conference, and I will share it with you now. My truth... my kids are young and I am not willing to sacrifice my time with them. Being a writer, or pursuing any dream, is about sacrifice. These years are too important to me, and I don't want to give them up.
From the time I get home, I am making dinner, helping with homework, running kids to practices and lessons, playing with them, pretending I intend to clean the house, doing laundry, bathing children, and getting them in bed. (I'm sure this sounds familiar!) Then it's homework time. This used to be my "writing" time, but has now turned into homework time.
Eventually I'm out of hours, unless of course I don't sleep, which I've already cut back on some of that too. What an interesting book I could write during my delirium though! HA! Might be interesting!
So, my job isn't to make excuses here. But, in order to make a schedule you need to know your priorities. My kids will always be at the top of my priority list, and unfortunately, I can't afford not to have school toward the top too.
What I've come to realize...
My time will come! One day I will have more time to write, and I will write my heart out! And I won't have regrets!
Does that mean I should quit, even just for now?
I'm going to strap on my little mouse helmet and get me some cheese!!! There are still choices to make. Still important decisions that can help me along my way. Here are a goals that are helping me:
- Set small, achievable, goals.
- Hit a daily limit! Even if it's only 500 words a day, at least I'm moving forward!
- Reevaluate priorities. There are other places I can sacrifice that won't take away from time with my children.