Yes, I've chosen Valentines Day to reveal my deep, dark secret. Prepare yourself... it may or may not be what you're expecting. *giggles*
First off, I've come to dread Valentines Day. Not necessarily dread, but to me - it's really just another day. And yes, I'm married. Trouble is...
(and here's the secret)... my husbands romance-o-meter is on zero. Sometimes it even drops into the negatives, but it usually rests on zero.
This is the man who sent me 12 beautiful, long stem, fire and ice roses when he went on his first hunting trip when we were dating. WOW! I was so impressed. But now we're married. And we have bills and three little kids to pay for, amongst other things, so who wants to spend that kind of money on flowers, right?
During the first few years of our marriage this sudden lack of romance was horrible. Seriously depressing. But now - *shrugs shoulders* eh, don't really care. Okay, I don't care most of the time. We don't really worry about Valentines presents for each other and that's fine. But when he asked what I wanted for my birthday, I told him I wanted him to send me something at work. (Who doesn't love a romantic display of affection at work to show off their man, right?) Well guess what? The boy did GOOD! Really good! He sent me a dozen long stem lavender roses that were TO.DIE.FOR! *sigh* I'm glad he still has it in him when he wants to.
But here's the problem... writing romance!
Seriously! How am I supposed to write an awesome romance without any inspiration? UGH! It's horrible and quite frustrating at times. But guess what? There is inspiration in other places AND... we're writers... we have IMAGINATIONS! And that's what I use my imagination for!
FYI --- my husband must be getting better. Funny boy ordered me something in secret (to be delivered to me at work) but he didn't realize the confirmation email would go to our shared email account. *insert evil laugh* So I may or may not have seen it and hurried and deleted it so he wouldn't think the surprise was spoiled. Yes, I do have an evil side!
So, no matter what this holiday brings you...
Happy Valentines Day!
FYI ~ I really do love my husband, despite his lack of romantic ability. I especially love that he makes dinner on Sundays! Man, that guy can cook!